Thoughts

There are a lot of things I've thought to write about, but the lack of time and interest have prevented me from doing so. Some events major and others minor and some that even manage to make me laugh, however I doubt they would be of little interest to you.

There is one idea or thought that I have been rolling around my head for some time now. I like to work out most of the details in my head before I share my ideas aloud. You may call it a Scorpio trait or the behavior of a difficult woman, either one suits me.

This concept I am working on is embracing the person I am. Sounds simple, doesn't it? But is it? There are many traits I find and admire in others that I, myself do not possess. Those that are driven, disiplined, patient, focused, consistant, and even tempered amaze me. I sometimes wish I were more like them. Sometimes.

Then I remember me. I remember that I'm not perfect, and really never had an interest to be so inflicted. I've never fit into a nice neat box you can label and put on a shelf. It's no who I am. It's not how I function. I know I will never be anyone great in life. I will quietly be me. And that will have to be enough. I doubt I will ever know what I want to be or do when I grow up. I do not have any one great ambition to follow. I'm simply a jack of all trades and master of none.

I've always looked at that statement as a negitive one. For I really appreciate and respect those that are dedicated to their craf and manage to become masters of their efforts. And when I say I will never be a master of a trade, I do not mean I do not have the ability to do so. I am sure that I have, deep down somewhere. I mean that I do not wish to give up all my other interests to focus on only the one.

I am a glutton of the worst kind. I am a glutton of life.