I can tell when it's coming. I can feel it in my bones. I notice how I start shutting people out and become overly critical of everything. I develop a sever lack of interest in most everything around me. The little patience I'm able to manage is gone. My anger has a lightening fast fuse. And I'm tired. Very tired.
It is April 2nd and it's snowing out this evening. I am trying to relax and unwind a bit. Trying to find what little balance I may have left inside of me. I will light a few candles and sit down to relax. I can write about everything that has been happening, but I'm afraid it would come out sounding like bitching, and that would be annoying. So we will just say life has been stressful. But it's getting better. And tomorrow is another day to make an attempt at getting something right.
I haven't been writing as much as I had wanted to. I've been spending my time working on building my business. I am enjoying it for once and it's starting to pick up. I want to continue building it, but again I'm finding that I need to remind myself of balance.
So that is my thoughts for the evening. I will continue reflecting on creating more balance in my life and hopefully you will hear from me again soon.
Good night.
S
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I think we all go thru these ebbs, or mood swings. I know for almost the entire month of March I detested everything about blogging, writing, and the internet in general. I didn't feel well and I was basically a miserable bitch to be around!
And what do you know? It's April and I'm still a miserable bitch no one wants to be around! lol! (just teasing)
I hope you feel better soon sweetie.
xoxo,
nina
I can only echo what nina has said. March and the events leading up to it have left me feeling pretty shut down too.
Its strange isn't it that while we're happy to share the good things in our lives, we're careful about writing our thoughts publicly when times are not so good for concern that we'll sound as if we're 'bitching'.
Hope things look up for you soon....in the meantime, love and hugs xxx
Nina,
I think part of my problem is that I've been around some very toxic negitive people. The just suck the soul out of me. Now that they are gone, I need some down time to re-energize. I have to say, I'm normally a bitch and tough to be around, so I don't know that it would make a difference. Be good to you.
S
M:e,
I think spring is long overdue. I love winter, but I'm ready to start playing in the dirt in my yard. I'm such an earth mother. As for worring about the bitching, I don't care if you hear me bitching, I just didn't want to leave a negitive vibe. There is plenty I can share the next time.
S
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