Strangled

I woke up the other morning to find that I was strangling myself. I wasn't caught up in the extra blankets, pillows or clothes. I literally had both my hands around my own neck; squeezing. Now I don't know what you think, but that led me to believe that I have some tension in my life I need to deal with, and quickly.

I've pulled muscles in my back, developed stiff joints and tendons in my wrists and forearms and now, I am showing signs of TMJ. I'm clenching my teeth while I sleep. I wake up with my jaw sore and stiff.

I've taken the last few weeks to review my life, to try and identify my stresses. I've not found anything out of the ordinary which worried me. Then I thought that maybe it's the 'ordinary' that is driving me nuts.

It's time to take off the gloves and be very honest with myself. I've been in a 'holding' pattern in my life for a few years now and I think it's time to pick a direction and go. I'm still not sure what the big picture of my life should be, but I do know that there are a few small things I can accomplish that will help me be a happier, healthier traveler. Why I've not already taken these steps, I do not know. Maybe it took me strangling myself to find the motivation I needed. I will tell you, it's one hell of a wake up call.

For the time being, this blog is going to look fragmented. I do not want to concern myself with structure, editing...etc. It will be the space that I need it to be, at the time I am writing. Who knows what will come next.

S