Staying Together

I've been sick for the past week and a half and very likely super sensitive to my surroundings. Having said that, the subject of divorce and loveless marriages seems to be swirling around our home. It is been weighing heavy on my mind.

I didn't think this would be so hard to write. I am struggling to untangle my thoughts and put them onto paper. Forgive me if this goes in circles.

At first, I didn't think I was looking for problems in my own relationship with hubby. But now, I think, maybe I am. Not to create a scene, but to address any issues that might become a problem down the road.

Then I realized, living and loving is a life process. I don't believe that an 'air tight' marriage exists. One can not go around fixing everything and expect you will have smooth sailing once everything is 'mended'. You just never know what may come your way next.

So right now I'm just assessing me. I'm looking at my wants and needs and making attempts to express them in a way that they are being heard and met. I am learning to be present with the person I'm with, be it hubby, family or friends. I am attempting to be kinder to myself and those I love. I'm re-evaluating priorities and realizing that a lot of 'needs' are just intense 'wants'....and when looked at correctly, they are just more things that take me away from what I really want to have and do in my life.

We've had several conversations and I feel that we are on the same page, together. There has been loss of intimacy, but not love. We realized we've coasted through our relationship for a while and now it's time to work on getting it back to 'good.'

I want to wish you the best in your relationships. Hold the ones you love close and be good to yourself.

S