Herding Cats

For a while now, life has overwhelmed me. The control freak in me took a small vacation and I let the chips fall where they may. As a result, I haven't been happy. Go figure.

I can go on and on about my feelings on the subject, why I waver like I do, but honestly, that's just wasting more time. And honestly, I don't have all the answers anyway. What I do know, is that there are goals ahead of me that I'm determined to reach.

Number one on my list is take care of health concerns. I've already taken the first step in making and keeping my first doctor appointment. Later, I visited a wonderful vampire and she took 5 vials of blood for testing. I am hoping to get results back early next week. I also need to convince myself that I love the freezing fog and icy roads and get outside and start walking again. The dog has gained some weight and she needs to shed some pounds.

Number two on my list is volunteer work. There has been a program that has been on my radar for a while now. I think it's time to stop looking at it and get involved. I plan to fill out an application next week and see what's available.

Number three is not as defined as the previous two. It has to do with our social calendar as a family and for me as an individual. I've already made small efforts to reconnect or strengthen connects we've already made. It is so easy for me to live in my own shell that I forget that others can be negatively affected. I also have to keep in mind that I can and need to limit myself from OPD. (other peoples drama). I've found that lately I seem to be everyone's ear to vent, and while I don't mind lending my time...too much spent listening to people bitch is overwhelming.

I would have liked to say it was a nice break, but it really wasn't. It's time to stop wasting the effort of herding cats.